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iam so happy,.. counting down the days… the day that i know that i can be with your arms again… that i can sleep and wake up in the morning seeing you beside me… looking at me and says i love you…. i missed that little thingy.. simple yet so romantic for me.. little things that gives a big imapact in my heart… now is the time that i can only feel your presence,your love that ive never felt like this before…or let say youve never let me feel this darn feeling.. hahha…

and now were gonna get married so soon…im so excited,that i wanna pull the days so fast,..just to be with you…i love you too lloyd

OH MY GOD! thats what i want to say! i cant believe that im or i mean we are planning these things..?? its been awhile that we are just dreaming of this! now, were almost there,.. step by step you can now reach youre dreams,..isnt it an achievements?? what i dreamed of before is now slowly and carefully fullfilling my satisfaction,.. i was a lil upset that i dint find any sitter for austine and i almost lost my job! duh?! what should i do? i did my very best but still looking for it until now!! thats a big trial for me though.. i need to save more money for the upcoming future!! GOD HELP ME!!

but inspite of evrything that ive been going through here in the green land that i have and stepping now still i have to go through.. i have to go and bet for the destiny that still i can make it through!!(yeah right im strong enough now) i just have to have faith in HIM and with HIM and through HIM i can surpass all of these struggles of my life,..  i just can believe that iam a MOTHER and have this kind of responsibility, that iam a WIFE and i have this kind of mess to give my HUSBAND to be,..hehehe..sorry bhabes but this is me and your gonna marry me right? and you also have to marry my messy life,..hahaha.. i know you know me better than i am,.coz we live in together for almost 2 years,..so,theres nthing to worry about,..

TO MY HUSBAND: Thank you for giving me this strength and giving me all that i have know in my mind,soul and in my life,.. i owe you this life that we have now! especially the handsome son austine that you gave me its been a wonderful boy,..i love him as i love you!! i both love you dear.,.. thank you for everything..

ang hirap nmn di ako mkatulog,..dko alam kun ano ba iniicp ko,at anu ba dpat??bkit ba gnito? anu ba to?hala para akong tanga!somethings bothering me!dko alam kun anu un,..huh!!balisa ba ga ang pkiramdam ko, hsls tulungan nyo ko! i need help! naiinis ako sa sarili ko,kc may gus2 ako gawin n dko alam kun ano papano…naramdaman nyo na rin ba ito?parang tanga tlaga…kuh kakahirap ba gah!

i went here with out anything in my mind except my husband whom im going to left in the philippines, still until now hes on my mind every minute,every second of everyday of ourlives…. many what if’s is buggin me…. what if were not really meant to be evnthough we have a son, what if he find another girl?, what if i found a new one here? but for sure i will not look for!, what if i didn’t make to get him?, what if i fail in my promises?.. my heart is cryin inside my heart wants to burst inside my heart wants to shout out loud at this moment,… is it long  distance relationship really does not work??? so do mine? what was happening to us? i dont wish or think this kind of family, were not together! is it really called family? were not even married the thing is we only had a son which is a god given gift! he is so perfect! my mind is confuse full of questions full of worries full of dreams that someday we might be togther again!

i went here with out anything in my mind except my husband whom im going to left in the philippines, still until now hes on my mind every minute,every second of everyday of ourlives…. many what if’s is buggin me…. what if were not really meant to be evnthough we have a son, what if he find another girl?, what if i found a new one here? but for sure i will not look for!, what if i didn’t make to get him?, what if i fail in my promises?.. my heart is cryin inside my heart wants to burst inside my heart wants to shout out loud at this moment,… is it long  distance relationship really does not work??? so do mine? what was happening to us? i dont wish or think this kind of family, were not together! is it really called family? were not even married the thing is we only had a son which is a god given gift! he is so perfect! my mind is confuse full of questions full of worries full of dreams that someday we might be togther again!

i went here with out anything in my mind except my husband whom im going to left in the philippines, still until now hes on my mind every minute,every second of everyday of ourlives…. many what if’s is buggin me…. what if were not really meant to be evnthough we have a son, what if he find another girl?, what if i found a new one here? but for sure i will not look for!, what if i didn’t make to get him?, what if i fail in my promises?.. my heart is cryin inside my heart wants to burst inside my heart wants to shout out loud at this moment,… is it long  distance relationship really does not work??? so do mine? what was happening to us? i dont wish or think this kind of family, were not together! is it really called family? were not even married the thing is we only had a son which is a god given gift! he is so perfect! my mind is confuse full of questions full of worries full of dreams that someday we might be togther again!